I’m not a real big fan of chewing gum. It makes me feel like a cow (more than I already feel) and makes my jaw hurt. The jaw pain leads to not-so-pleasant headaches.

But I have started to chew gum more often now. I know that makes a lot sense.

I have found that when I start to crave something, especially something sweet, that a stick of gum makes me feel like I am getting something sweet without getting something from the vending machine. And my mouth goes through the chewing process and the craving goes away.

I think it is a mental thing. Go figure.

I will say this…ice cream is the devil!
OK, that might be harsh but is way toooooo tempting.

So the restart feels like it is going slower than it did when I started in May. When I heated up my breakfast sandwich (a Weight Watchers Smart Ones) I just stared at the vending machine….ah the vending machine…and it had a wide variety of items that looked oh so good. I kept hearing that tiny little voice in my head say “Gee that looks good, OH, that one looks good too…”

Needless to say I was glad that the microwave beeped when it did and that I didn’t have any singles.

OK, after a month of constant failures, I am starting quest to eat better — healthier foods and smaller portions — all over again.

It has been extremely frustrating that I have gotten so far off track and haven’t been able to get back on it.

I’m disappointed in myself. And I don’t feel as good as I did when I started. Now, don’t get the wrong idea. My jeans still fit like they should — the month of failures haven’t made me gain what I lost. And I’m thankful that my pants don’t pinch my middle.

But I’m still not happy, you know, with myself. So I’m going to start over again,

Oh, there is a plus side. While I have increased my caloric intake, I have actually been exercising. I take a walk just about every day and it feels great.

Yeah, bad food is winning the Battle of the Bulge. 

At least that is the case this week as Willpower lost to Brain’s cheeseburger offensive. It was successful…the French Fry assault broke all of Willpower’s defenses. Needless to say, the Cheeseburger filled my stomach and satisfied Brain’s wants.

It also opened the way for a ice cream battery barrage.

Willpower and I are now recouping… attempting to  to come up with a new battle plan that we will put in action Monday.

One of the things that Mr. X and I have started to eat since I started trying to lose weight and simply eat better is fish.

About of month ago, we grilled tuna steaks. They were wonderful. But grilling isn’t always an option. So we tried searing filets in our grill pan. This is fantastic. I like with some olive oil and green onions and garlic. Then just sear the tuna on each side for a couple of minutes — you might google searing tuna for an exact time.

It is a nice treat.

So, now  I have some fresh canned tuna from a gentlemen at work. I am thinking tuna salad but would like to think there are couple of options.

Let me know.

RELATED LINKS:

Here are some links related to catching the tuna mentioned above:

Blog: Catching Tuna In Bandon

VIDEOS: Hooked up with Tuna

I like bread. 

Really like it. 

Since I have started trying to lose weight, I have tried to find  balance between eating bread and shedding pounds. I could drop a lot weight quickly if I eliminate this staple for a couple of weeks.

But I don’t want to do that. Instead, I have tried to eat more whole grains. The sourdough I get at the farmers market is made with wheat flour.

And  I try not to eat more than a couple in day. 

Friday at a restaurant I lost control. I had a couple and enjoyed the pats of butter that came with it. And the bread was gone. OK, had a piece too many but hey, we are having a night on the town.

Then they bring more bread … I eat a piece, then another. I’m full but I just can’t stop .

There is something wrong with me, bread is a habit I just can’t let go.

What type of bread-control suggestions do you have?