Archive for January, 2010

Coffee Coffee Coffee Coffee Coffee Coffee Coffee Coffee Coffee Coffee

Thursday, January 28th, 2010

So I am a little tired today. And by lunch, really needed more caffeine. Specifically I needed a four-espresso shot latte.

And Oh My God when I finally had one it was wonderful! W-O-N-D-E-R-F-U-L

And everyone around me hated being next to me because the coffee kicked in. In fact, they sought out who was to blame for the coffee-infused Shepherd. Jokes on the, I got my own.

Hour and half later, well, I need a nap again … or more espresso. :)

Yeah… espresso.

No, nap.

No, no, espresso…more coffee. That is exactly what I need! :)

stupid donut

Tuesday, January 26th, 2010

I ate half a donut after having kind of a rough morning…it wasn’t very tasty. It tasted like…like…like guilt.

Stupid donut.

Stupid stupid donut

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Almost meatless weekend

Monday, January 25th, 2010

So after feasting on steak Friday night, I managed to make the rest of my weekend almost meatless. For breakfast both Saturday and Sunday, I found a special treat in grapefruit. I know, I was surprised to but a little bit of sugar let me have the best of both world: tart and sweet.

Lunch one day consisted of a veggie chix patty and a spinach-stuffed focaccia for dinner one day. Sunday was Mac’n'Cheese and baked potato soup…oddly enough the soup had the only meat product — bacon bits.

I was surprised that I was generally satisfied  and not hungry for snacks through out the day — minus of course the desire for pie, which by the way I still want.

Maybe I will have to try going meatless more often…

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Control what you can when stress fuels binge eating

Monday, January 25th, 2010

Stress eating.

Yup, that is how I would sum up the last couple of weeks after an abnormal pap smear resulted in some minor outpatient surgery.

Don’t worry. Everything is fine. But food became a central part of dealing with the situation.

Let me see: The day the doctor told me I required surgery, I decided that a buffalo burger and sweet potato fries were in order. Monday before surgery it was a combination of cheeseburger, garlic fries and a blizzard treat. The night before surgery — when you think fear would make me not hungry — I ate pasta with a fattening and scrumptious alfredo sauce.

I’ll be honest. The food was just OK. It didn’t make me feel less jittery nor did it make me feel guilty for eating it.

This time around, I realized my stressed-fueled eating binges weren’t about having food comfort me. It was about control.

I couldn’t control what was going to happen with my body. I couldn’t prevent the need for surgery or control the outcome of the test that made my pap smear abnormal.

What I could control in this situation was what I ate and how much I ate. So when I wanted a burger that was what I was going to have. No one could tell me no. Soda, ice cream, every French fry on the plate … each item was under my command.

Not the healthiest way to approach food, but that is the thing with stress eating, it is about the control.

The best lesson I can take away from all of this? Well, if I am eating to feel in control, then this is the opportunity to let that control dictate good decisions: Eat the orange instead of the ice cream, pick buffalo instead of ground beef, eat a salad instead of fries.

Control can, and should, lead to better decisions.

Food Junkie Discovery

I don’t really have a discovery this week. One of my goals is to eat more fruit. Right now, I am really enjoying the oranges that local stores have on special. That is the great thing about this time of the year. Some of the fruit is re-emerging, making it a little easier to find good quality.

The FroYo Compromise

Sunday, January 24th, 2010

I still want pie. But I’m not going to let myself have pie, warm sweet apple pie.

No, no, no, no.

But last night I needed to do something to kill the sweet craving since the Operation Orange failed to meet its objective.

I decided to surrender, a little. I decided that some sort of ice cream treat would be a good place to start negotiations.  Lemon sorbet didn’t really fit the bill and low-fat, sugar free ice cream generally comes in half-gallon sizes or so, too big for a weekend treat. Then I saw it, frozen yogurt. OK, I’ll try it…they have Ben and Jerry’s Frozen yogurt with brownie bites, this might work.

It was good and best of all, I was able to eat just one serving instead of the entire pint.

I take my victories where I can get them. :)

The word of the day: Pie

Saturday, January 23rd, 2010

Pie, it all I have been thinking about today…well outside the interwar years and the military doctrine that was developed during this period.

But mostly I have thought about pie. Specifically, I want apple or peach pie…a pie with fruit that is covered with sugar and cinnamon. I want pie.

I’m pretty sure pie is not what I should have…it isn’t exactly figure friendly…sigh.

I want pie.

Pie. Pie.Pie.

Pie.

Fine, I will have an orange…but I still want pie.

I haven’t left

Thursday, January 21st, 2010

There have been some things going on this week that have kept me sidetracked from the blog…but they have past and I will be back in full force. I promise.

And just so you know, some of the things that have sidetracked me from my blog have kept me from making some good food choices…but I am on the mend.

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You would think this time would be easier

Monday, January 18th, 2010

I really thought that starting my efforts again this month would be so much easier than when I started in May.

It would be easier because I had already shed some pounds, found an exercise buddy and felt generally inspired to eat right.

So, would someone please explain why this is twice as hard as it was in May?

I have really struggled with not eating too much. It doesn’t matter if it is good for me or not so great for my efforts. I just keep putting food in my mouth. Snacks are a great example. At home, I have healthy snacks: Carrots, nuts, pickles and cheese. What do I do when I get home: I have a healthy snack. I feel proud of myself … then I manage to eat a sample of every snack I have.

OK, this past week I did a little better, but it is something I constantly struggle with and I’m always looking for a way to nip it in the bud.

And if me having food-in-mouth syndrome wasn’t bad enough, I read that the nutritional information on restaurant and some frozen foods isn’t correct. In some cases, the calories actually in the food is double what is listed.

This is problematic since I really rely on the restaurant nutritional information.

Sigh.

It is OK. This just means I have to be more cautious about the foods I pick and realize there may be more calories in it than I think. More importantly, I just need to watch my serving sizes.

Even though it has been a rough go, I do have some good news. I have really done well at keeping Goal No. 2: Eat more fruit. I have had a piece of fruit every day and it really has cut down on my desire for sweet treats. Though I will admit, I did have a handcrafted peanut butter cup from a local candy shop recently — but it was a rare treat.

Sometimes I do feel like a nut — or three

I try to stay away from naming too many brands, but in this case it might be hard. Recently, I stumbled across Planter’s Nut-trition selections. These nuts are geared for different nutritional/health needs.

There is an energy mix and healthy heart mix. More importantly, there is a diet mix that is cashews, almonds and macadamias. It was handy to find a nut mix with the nuts that I want.

Feeling run down

Wednesday, January 13th, 2010

I don’t know what is going on with my ol’body, but I feel just run down. It could be related to my schedule and not getting enough sleep…but I know I am ready for it to stop. I just haven’t figured out to get the sleep that will help me feel better. I keep asking but everyone seems  unable to add time to the clock..I just need another 24 hours added.

This feeling makes me just want to sleep and crankier than usual. Worse yet, it makes me hungry and for things that I shouldn’t eat. Right now is  a prime example. I am starving and I really think I should have a quarter pounder, fries and a soda. Yeah, I don’t think I should eat that. The other part of me thinks a piece of deli chicken (Fried) and some pasta salad would be good. I’m not sure that is a better choice either.

Sigh.

Maybe I will just take a nap — if I can find the time.

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Snack time dilemma

Tuesday, January 12th, 2010

It is time to refill the snack drawer with some nuts and cereal bars.

Why? Well because I don’t like that overwhelming hungry feeling and knowing it is way too early for lunch

That happened this morning…I had already ate my orange (Goal No. 2) and was working on the front page when I felt really really hungry. It was 9:46 and too early to eat my sandwich.

I used to have some healthy, diet friendly yum-yums, but they are gone. I had to buy a page of snack mix (it was that or a bag of fruit chews)

I need to go to the grocery store

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